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Sep. 18th, 2005 @ 02:14 pm satisfied
Current Music: Jeremy Camp- "I'll take you back"
no matter what happens I am satisfied with God's grace.
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Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 04:22 pm one more thing...
I believe it takes more faith to believe that there is no God... than
to believe that there is a God. So really, we all have faith....
it's just the difference of what we base it upon... if you want
to seriously confuse someone... Ask an atheist how there faith
journey is coming... it's an honest question. :-)
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Aug. 21st, 2005 @ 10:51 am I mean for real though...
Current Mood: amused
Current Music: the hum of fans...
Okay, check this out. I understand that people have different beliefs....
that peeps don't really want to admit that there is a God, etc. I understand
the frustration of not being able to see God or know what God looks like or whatever...
I understand all that. BUT at the same time... we have to come to a critical
conclusion in our lives which says "I admit that I don't know everything... that
I will never know everything... that I don't WANT to know everything... "

This is a critical point, because only when we admit that we are NOT God... can
we begin the process of examining if there IS actually a God. What proof is there
that God exists? I mean, technically... we only have the earth and everything in it...
the trees, ant farms, farts, milk, and giraffes... oh yeah ... then we have the
universe... that we exist in. I mean the best "proof" I have of God (outside of His word)
lies in a question...

"How does that exist?" You can ask this about anything... ie...
the earth... someone might say that the earth exists because a bundle of matter ... rock
and dust and air and water started spinning around together...... Not a good argument
but for the sake of demonstration... I will buy it. Fine... Well then... if rock and
dust and air and water exist... "How do they exist?" Well the big bang? "How did the big
bang exist?" and so on and so on... til you eventually have no answers to the questions...

E
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Aug. 16th, 2005 @ 12:12 am Where haven't I been?
Current Music: ahgaghahahghahg
Where haven't I been? I don't know where to begin.

There are a lot of places I haven't been.
I am home now. It's been a while. I am hoping for
some rest. Possibly going to fall asleep looking
at you all. It is a good tired... I have done a lot.
I want to be God's servant more... but I need sleep.
keeping myself awake.
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Jun. 10th, 2005 @ 01:59 am Huh?
Current Music: Coldplay-Clocks
Fast. It all comes so fast. Don't remember yesterday because tomorrow is on its way and it would take a lot to slow down enough to enjoy today. Am I too important to choose to love other people? I want to show others that I accept them, that I have time for them, that I am a person that God has created to love them for who HE has made them to be. What am I doing when I forget that He is love and not a book of rules? Who am I when I forget who I am ? And He's bigger.
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Apr. 24th, 2005 @ 12:49 pm Warrior
Current Mood: Ready. Armed. Pumped.
Current Music: Amazing Grace on the bagpipes from Braveheart
I noticed my old journal from my three month adventure in Mexico
on my bookshelf this morning. It’s been a good while since I’d opened it.
I have forgotten how much of a warrior I was… I want that back. I want
to be a warrior for Christ. God has already won the battle… we are on
the field dodging bullets and dodging the “survivors” from the other
team on our reconasaince missions. Make me a soldier, Lord. Turn me
into a true warrior after the hearts of the people… I will fight until
my physical body is exhausted and dying from fighting the hardest fight
that I can possibly fight... covered in sweat and blood… and at peace...
There is something greater to come…. Something worth fighting for…
That is the way my life WILL be lived. Notice that in battle… some will
die and some will live. There is no in between, though. Either you are
fighting in the battle or you are already deceased. Many people don’t
know that they are deceased.

God can resurrect the dead.
I want to fight in His army.

EB
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Apr. 14th, 2005 @ 05:53 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: thankful
Current Music: the hum of the fan cooling my computer
I agree with the post on the Terry Schiavo issue. It is
a hard line to walk. It is tough to determine
what is "our" .. "choice" ... and what isn't. I believe that
I don't know enough now about it to know whether or not she was
on "life support," but I do know that she deserved a shot just
like us. And frankly, in "letting" or "allowing" someone to die,
the line is so blurred between murder and mercy that I guess I
want to err on the side of caution when it comes to this. I do
agree with you, though. There already is a slippery slope that
we don't really examine on a deeper level. (ie... we don't think
of a trip from NC to SC as an all-day affair...just a few hours...
but in the past it would have taken days... it doesn't make the
distance any shorter.) Death is just as concrete and permanent.
I think that is where my caution lies. BUT both sides of this
entire issue believe that they are right, and both sides of the issue
are effectively trying to "play God" through the slippery slope of
medical advancement or the merciful death. Thanks for an honest
examination of this rather than a cut and dry, black and white
argument which strips the issue of what it really is. It is a
"mere human" issue and I would be interested to see what God would
say about our motives for the entire issue. -EV
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Apr. 1st, 2005 @ 07:44 pm Incredible.
I saw Hotel Rwanda on Wednesday night. Two nights later, it
still resonates. It still hits home. I believe that it is
one of the greatest and horrifying true stories that I have
seen on film. At what point to we begin to value the human
life that God has put beside us in our fellow men? At what
point do we begin to agree with God that all are His creation
and that we should at least honor that, whether they agree
with Him or not. I also saw the Last Samurai last night. What
is God trying to tell me? I believe He may be saying that I
have to learn respect for that which He has given.
Hotel Rwanda will change my life and how I view what happened
forever. I believe that God led me there. Let Him show you
and reveal to you the unclean nature of all of our hearts, but
also the cleansing power of His love. Go see some of these
movies. Don't simply think of what the director, actors, and
writers want you to see, but think of God's higher purpose in
showing you the movie... What's He trying to teach us?
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Mar. 22nd, 2005 @ 12:17 am For what it's worth....
Okay, for what it's worth... Michael Schiavo already has
another "wife", kids, etc... So he honestly needs to give
up his rights as a husband and stop fighting those who
also love her. Kind of messed up, I think to continue and
try to do something like that and allow her to die, if
everyone isn't unanimous on it. All we have for credibilities
sake is the very intense Michael Schiavo, who would find it quite
inconvenient if a miracle occurred and his wife's brain activity
returned. But you have a woman who is STILL ALIVE... and people
are asking that because her brain is "mush", let's not give her
another shot, let's just move her along. Fine, then I will take
my dog, Bear, out back and tie him to a tree without food, because
he doesn't have the mental capacity to enjoy life the way I do...
tough luck, bear. So you want the kicker? Michael Schiavo, on CNN,
yesterday when asked to respond to Terri Schiavo's brother's comment
that "she could make it to the hearing in a wheelchair today", Michael
Schiavo, responded with "Yes, you could" basically. Case closed.
At what point do we, as mere humans, decide that we are so much
wiser than other people. We believe we have it all figured out.
Because of our own insecurites and pity for others, we decide that
life is too tough for them to handle. Terri Schiavo might change
the world, even if only through her affect on others... God has
a plan and who are we to take over? No one knows, nor might we
ever know the potential that the person of Terri Schiavo still holds.
No one knows her wishes now, she didn't have a living will. No doctors
can tell us what is going on in her body and mind... The fact is that,
yes, our 'precious' lives may be easier without people such as Mrs.
Schiavo, who are "holding us 'normal' people back," but frankly life
would be a lot less enjoyable, a lot more mundane, and frankly, more
self-centered without challenged people. In a self-centered decision,
we would decide for her if she should live or die. In a God-centered
decision, (listen to this) we would do what God would want us to do...
period. One question... if God didn't want her alive, then why would
she still be living? For some reason she is, and let's embrace that...
and God's ultimate perfect plan.

ev
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Mar. 20th, 2005 @ 11:57 pm right to life?
Current Mood: upside down
Current Music: Derek Webb-I see things upside down
What is the deal with this whole terri schiavo case?
Listen, I mean, if her husband, the guardian, has already
moved on with his life and refuses to stand by her side
in this... let him move on... Crazy how mixed up and warped
our minds can get about the right to live. We really mess
with God's will a whole lot. We make choices that affect
people's entire lives, not caring about what they think...
pretty crazy. God be with us.
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